Dear Logan,
Both Daddy and I thought that after last visit to see you, your brother might be aware that where you live might not be the happiest place on earth. We've slowly seen him wanting to stay shorter and shorter. And after last time's heart-breaking visit, we were worried that he wouldn't want to visit you anymore.
However, when I mentioned that we would be seeing you today, he happily said "yes" and said "I like Logan". What a sigh of relief. He always likes to help me scrub your door and help me with your flowers. He's really growing up to be a little helper. So, whenever I went to get you flowers, I would let him pick out the flowers. He always accompanies me and helps with getting water while I trim the flowers.
The plan worked well today as well. We went to Costco and he picked out the sunflowers for you. Then he poured water into your door while I scrubbed it clean. He sang you the number song that he learned at his new school, while I praised him for being a good, big boy. It was a great visit.
I'm still glad that he hasn't asked the difficult questions about you yet. I'm not sure how much longer I can avoid such questions, but for now, we'll keep our routine to have your big brother help me out as much as possible. I don't want him to associate visiting you as a sad experience.
Miss you,
Mommy
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Thinking of you
Dear Logan,
I was at Kaiser again this afternoon. Saturdays are definitely a lot quieter than a weekday.
Ever since I left the hospital wing over a year ago, I don't believe I've stepped foot into that area again. Yes, I've been to many doctor's visits recently, but they are all at the medical offices building. The hospital building and the medical offices building are actually attached to each other. It's really easy to just go back to those familiar elevators.
As I was walking through the hallway towards the Optometry department, I could see through the glass window/wall lined along the way into the hospital wing across the courtyard. Because it was such a quiet day, I couldn't help by slow down my pace, and take in the view and the silence. My thoughts just drifted back to you and the time we spent there. I could see the hospital side clearly. I didn't stop and ponder, but slowly walked to where I needed to go. It was just a few brief seconds, but it made an impact.
Miss you,
Mommy
I was at Kaiser again this afternoon. Saturdays are definitely a lot quieter than a weekday.
Ever since I left the hospital wing over a year ago, I don't believe I've stepped foot into that area again. Yes, I've been to many doctor's visits recently, but they are all at the medical offices building. The hospital building and the medical offices building are actually attached to each other. It's really easy to just go back to those familiar elevators.
As I was walking through the hallway towards the Optometry department, I could see through the glass window/wall lined along the way into the hospital wing across the courtyard. Because it was such a quiet day, I couldn't help by slow down my pace, and take in the view and the silence. My thoughts just drifted back to you and the time we spent there. I could see the hospital side clearly. I didn't stop and ponder, but slowly walked to where I needed to go. It was just a few brief seconds, but it made an impact.
Miss you,
Mommy
Is it already time to say goodbye to naps?
Dear Logan,
Ever since last month's vacation, your brother's afternoon nap schedule has been way off. There were days when he would nap from 3-5:30 p.m. (with me waking him up) and then he wouldn't sleep at night until close to 11 p.m. Those nights totally drove me crazy. On days that he didn't nap, our evenings were horrible. He would be especially hard to deal with, and wouldn't listen to me or Daddy. Those evenings usually coincided with our dinnertime, and that meal turned out to be pretty unpleasant at times.
This past week, he only napped today. He almost napped on Monday on our way back from Happy Hollow, but because the ride was only 20 mins, he didn't start falling asleep until we almost arrived home. By the time I stopped the car and got him inside the house, he's wide awake enough to get on my computer to watch videos.
He definitely didn't sleep on his first three days of school. No surprise there. Naps start at 1 p.m., and it's a little too early for him, though it's the same schedule as his old school. At his old school, it took the magic touch of a particular teacher to get him to sleep. Luckily I was able to get him to bed before 9 p.m., so he had at least 10 hours of sleep at night.
Afternoon naps are a break for Daddy and Mommy on the weekends. Although he slept today, I am pretty sure he's just about to grow out of his naps. I was hoping he can wait for another year or so, and just cut that nap when he goes to Kindergarten next year. I guess no such luck. All I wish is for his crankiness and disobedience to go away on days that he does not nap.
Love you,
Mommy
Ever since last month's vacation, your brother's afternoon nap schedule has been way off. There were days when he would nap from 3-5:30 p.m. (with me waking him up) and then he wouldn't sleep at night until close to 11 p.m. Those nights totally drove me crazy. On days that he didn't nap, our evenings were horrible. He would be especially hard to deal with, and wouldn't listen to me or Daddy. Those evenings usually coincided with our dinnertime, and that meal turned out to be pretty unpleasant at times.
This past week, he only napped today. He almost napped on Monday on our way back from Happy Hollow, but because the ride was only 20 mins, he didn't start falling asleep until we almost arrived home. By the time I stopped the car and got him inside the house, he's wide awake enough to get on my computer to watch videos.
He definitely didn't sleep on his first three days of school. No surprise there. Naps start at 1 p.m., and it's a little too early for him, though it's the same schedule as his old school. At his old school, it took the magic touch of a particular teacher to get him to sleep. Luckily I was able to get him to bed before 9 p.m., so he had at least 10 hours of sleep at night.
Afternoon naps are a break for Daddy and Mommy on the weekends. Although he slept today, I am pretty sure he's just about to grow out of his naps. I was hoping he can wait for another year or so, and just cut that nap when he goes to Kindergarten next year. I guess no such luck. All I wish is for his crankiness and disobedience to go away on days that he does not nap.
Love you,
Mommy
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Back to work and back to school, may not be such a bad idea
Dear Logan,
Today is the second day of me going back to work. It has been two very busy days. While I was gone for a month, a lot has happened at work, and I had a lot of catch-up to do. I couldn't really slowly ease myself back to work, as I need to update myself on what's been going on with my clients, and getting ready for the many meetings that have been scheduled for next week.
Aidan, on the other hand, has finally started at his new school. It seems like he is having a good time, and likes his friends and teachers. Yesterday, both daddy and mommy took him to his new school. It was nice for us both to be present. When I came home from work, I immediately asked him about his day. He told me he has a best friend! Wow, that was fast! His best friend is Roger. I noticed this little boy during the first trial day. He was quiet, didn't say much, but also was observing Aidan and following him around a little. He is a little shorter than Aidan, and possibly younger as well. You know your brother, he's active and talkative. It's really not hard for him to make friends. I asked the teacher this morning when I dropped him off at school to confirm this new blossoming friendship. Ms. R said that they were playing together a lot. It's also nice to see Aidan giving Ms. R a big hug in the morning. Although Aidan tends to hug everyone, I think it still hows he likes his teacher.
Being with Aidan for a whole month, esp. alone with him for the last 1.5 weeks, possibly put a strain in our relationship. It's been a long time since I spent so much time with him alone. It was tough, as he sometimes drives me crazy. I need to keep him away from all electronic devices at home as much as possible: TV, computer, laptop, Wii, and cameras. Thank god I am not a stay-at-home mother. I would be a terrible mother. I am addicted to the TV and laptop, and no wonder Aidan is as well. I had to take him out every single day to keep him happy and active. At the end of the day, I was so burnt out from being with him, I just wanted a break.
But now that I am back to work and I only get to spend 2-3 hours with him before he has to go to bed, the time we spend together has become priceless again. I am eager to ask him everything about school, though he always says "I don't know". I am happy to hug and kiss him non-stop, and read him stories every night. Even getting him to sleep has become enjoyable again.
Life is back to normal. For once, I miss such normalcy in life...until I become restless and bored again.
Love you,
Mommy
Today is the second day of me going back to work. It has been two very busy days. While I was gone for a month, a lot has happened at work, and I had a lot of catch-up to do. I couldn't really slowly ease myself back to work, as I need to update myself on what's been going on with my clients, and getting ready for the many meetings that have been scheduled for next week.
Aidan, on the other hand, has finally started at his new school. It seems like he is having a good time, and likes his friends and teachers. Yesterday, both daddy and mommy took him to his new school. It was nice for us both to be present. When I came home from work, I immediately asked him about his day. He told me he has a best friend! Wow, that was fast! His best friend is Roger. I noticed this little boy during the first trial day. He was quiet, didn't say much, but also was observing Aidan and following him around a little. He is a little shorter than Aidan, and possibly younger as well. You know your brother, he's active and talkative. It's really not hard for him to make friends. I asked the teacher this morning when I dropped him off at school to confirm this new blossoming friendship. Ms. R said that they were playing together a lot. It's also nice to see Aidan giving Ms. R a big hug in the morning. Although Aidan tends to hug everyone, I think it still hows he likes his teacher.
Being with Aidan for a whole month, esp. alone with him for the last 1.5 weeks, possibly put a strain in our relationship. It's been a long time since I spent so much time with him alone. It was tough, as he sometimes drives me crazy. I need to keep him away from all electronic devices at home as much as possible: TV, computer, laptop, Wii, and cameras. Thank god I am not a stay-at-home mother. I would be a terrible mother. I am addicted to the TV and laptop, and no wonder Aidan is as well. I had to take him out every single day to keep him happy and active. At the end of the day, I was so burnt out from being with him, I just wanted a break.
But now that I am back to work and I only get to spend 2-3 hours with him before he has to go to bed, the time we spend together has become priceless again. I am eager to ask him everything about school, though he always says "I don't know". I am happy to hug and kiss him non-stop, and read him stories every night. Even getting him to sleep has become enjoyable again.
Life is back to normal. For once, I miss such normalcy in life...until I become restless and bored again.
Love you,
Mommy
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