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Showing posts with label prayers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label prayers. Show all posts

Friday, June 12, 2009

What's up with our children?

Hi Logan,


I couldn't help but think and read about Edwards Syndrome. It's just as bad as Leigh's Disease. Mommy is so sad to hear about the news. At least if Mommy's friend's baby has Down Syndrome, the survival rate is a lot higher. But with Edwards Syndrome, the survival rate is close to none. I am not sure what my friend would do. Will she abort the baby? Will she try her luck and keep it as long as possible? I don't know, and there is no right or wrong answer.

I heard about the baby's news through another friend. I don't think my friend knows that I knew about it. I do not dare contacting her. This is very personal business, and if she doesn't share, I don't want to embarrass her or bother her during such a difficult time. I have thought of e-mailing her to tell her that I understand how she feels, and will be here for her if she ever wants to talk. But remembering the days after your diagnosis, I didn't feel like talking to anyone, though I have made my blog public, so friends and family knew about it. I have received numerous emails and phone calls, and I was grateful for them. However, I didn't want to talk to anyone. I fear I would cry, and I really didn't know what to say. Writing was much better for me. I know my friend finds solace and guidance from reading the Bible. I wish God will give her and her family all the strength that they need during this difficult time. Logan, if this little baby does make its way to heaven, be sure to keep him/her company.

Another of my friend's toddler is fighting a rare form of cancer. Thank goodness he is responding well to treatments!! But what's up with all these rare forms of illnesses? Shouldn't parents just worry about colds and flus, fevers and stomach aches? We shouldn't be worrying about cancers, chromosomal disorders or genetic diseases.

Logan, since you're closer to God than I am, please ask him to give all of my friends and their families, especially their children, the strength to deal with all the obstacles that they are facing.

Will you pray with Mommy, The Serenity Prayer?

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.


Love you,

Mommy


Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Prayers... Support.... Love...


Dear Logan,

Do you know how lucky we are? We've been blessed with amazing friends. Do you know how much support and words of encouragement mommy has gotten from other mothers who have gone through what I am going through, just by reading each other's blog? This is such an amazing community. Do you know how Mommy got reconnected with old elementary friends that I haven't talked to in over 20 years, and they are also sending their love to us? I don't know how I am going to repay everyone's kindness and generosity. Mommy is really speechless. Honey, this is all because of you. Through you, I see kindness and generosity in everyone. Through you, I realize how lucky and blessed I am. Through you, I have hope that this world is a better place, because you have made me a better person.

Mommy wants to share with you a prayer that Auntie Shelley's aunt, Joan, has written for mommy. This is exactly how Mommy feels.

"Oh, God, I don't know how I can bare this pain. I miss my boy so much! Please help me, God. I'm not going to turn away from you, God. I don't understand why this happened. But I need you, God. I need to celebrate my son's beautiful little life. Thank you for entrusting me to be his mom. Being his mom was the most magnificent privilege of my life. He knows how much I love him. He brought out in me things I didn't know I had. I will never be the same. I am his mother. I love more deeply. I care more completely. He gave me these gifts. Take him in your arms, Lord, and squeeze him tight and say, "That's from your mommy and daddy." Help me to find a way to live without him. I am so glad that he is without pain and struggle. How lucky all of heaven is to have him there. I don't know how I'm going to make it through this day. I am your child, God. Do you love me half as much as I love my little boy? Will you help me? I'm not running away from you, no matter how much I don't understand. I am running to you. Please give me the grace I need make it through this day, and to celebrate Logan's life. Thank you for the gift of his life. Take good care of him. I trust that you love me, Lord. Please take care of me and my family."


Mommy's old elementary friends, Auntie Christine and Auntie Goretti, sent us "The Serenity Prayer"


Logan baby, please be all of our guardian angels and watch over our beloved friends.


Love,
Mommy