Hello Logan,
Mommy had an idea. Instead of buying fresh flowers for you each time, I could make origami flowers instead. I used to know how to make Lilies, but I am sure I can refresh my memory by watching the hundreds of YouTube clips like this one below.
Paper flowers might not smell as nice, but they are made by Mommy. Besides, they are cheaper and can last longer. I was thinking, I could even use the drawings and paintings that your brother brought home from school, and make flowers out of them. Then they will be presents from me and him. Usually I just threw his artwork away after I scanned them anyway.
What do you think? I think I am going to go do some shopping tomorrow and make you some!
Love you,
Mommy
p.s. Oh wait..but if they water the grass, then the flowers will all get wet. Mm...maybe I should use the foil type paper, or maybe the bright sun will dry the paper flowers and they will remain standing? I gotta try it out!
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Brought back memories...
Hello Sweetheart,
Mommy had a client meeting earlier this afternoon. I was telling her that tomorrow she would be checking out a volunteer opportunity at Seton Medical Center. Her initial reaction was, sure. Then, she started getting emotional and shared that her aunt passed away at Seton last year. She told us that both her mother and aunt passed away last year, and it has been difficult to take the bus everyday passing by Seton Medical Center. Her life has changed so much within the last year, from living with her mother in Sacramento, to moving to the Bay Area. To staying home everyday, to going to a day program everyday. From not going anywhere, to being travel-trained and taking the bus everyday. She has made amazing progress and adjustments, yet she still misses her mother and aunt. When I heard what she had to say, I told her I understand how she feels, and it's OK if she doesn't want to volunteer there. We'll come up with other plans for her.
Of course I know how she feels. I feel the same way everyday I pass by the cemeteries on my way to work, and back home. Whenever I have to go to a hospital, whether it's Seton or Kaiser, or read stories about babies in NICU or PICU, or any baby suffering, I think of you. I didn't get emotional at the meeting, but stayed strong and supportive. Sometimes, I feel that I am not letting myself be emotional, or to grief. Life is too busy to grief. Mommy has always been a pretty happy-go-lucky person. And perhaps this personality has got me through these tough times. I see the good in people, and the good in situations. I am trying to see the positive.
Remember I told you that I stopped reading blogs about other griefing parents? I started doing that again. I feel that I am not mourning enough as it seems like my life has gone on. I've read about the hatred that some parents have towards others. I've read about all the different emotions that a new pregnancy has brought to a griefing parent. I don't necessarily agree or feel the same way, but I'd like to know how other griefing mothers are coping.
But sometimes, I wonder if I am in denial. I was reading about this article that a fellow Facebook friend/parent posted about Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder among parents with babies in the NICU. I didn't feel as fazzled or depressed as described in the article. I do remember all the dinging of the monitors at the hospital, the good news/bad news situation, and the several medical social workers that have so kindly talked to me but also confused me because there would almost be a different social worker each day.
Mommy still misses you everyday. It pains me everytime when I think of your face when you were in the hospital.
Miss you so much,
Mommy
Mommy had a client meeting earlier this afternoon. I was telling her that tomorrow she would be checking out a volunteer opportunity at Seton Medical Center. Her initial reaction was, sure. Then, she started getting emotional and shared that her aunt passed away at Seton last year. She told us that both her mother and aunt passed away last year, and it has been difficult to take the bus everyday passing by Seton Medical Center. Her life has changed so much within the last year, from living with her mother in Sacramento, to moving to the Bay Area. To staying home everyday, to going to a day program everyday. From not going anywhere, to being travel-trained and taking the bus everyday. She has made amazing progress and adjustments, yet she still misses her mother and aunt. When I heard what she had to say, I told her I understand how she feels, and it's OK if she doesn't want to volunteer there. We'll come up with other plans for her.
Of course I know how she feels. I feel the same way everyday I pass by the cemeteries on my way to work, and back home. Whenever I have to go to a hospital, whether it's Seton or Kaiser, or read stories about babies in NICU or PICU, or any baby suffering, I think of you. I didn't get emotional at the meeting, but stayed strong and supportive. Sometimes, I feel that I am not letting myself be emotional, or to grief. Life is too busy to grief. Mommy has always been a pretty happy-go-lucky person. And perhaps this personality has got me through these tough times. I see the good in people, and the good in situations. I am trying to see the positive.
Remember I told you that I stopped reading blogs about other griefing parents? I started doing that again. I feel that I am not mourning enough as it seems like my life has gone on. I've read about the hatred that some parents have towards others. I've read about all the different emotions that a new pregnancy has brought to a griefing parent. I don't necessarily agree or feel the same way, but I'd like to know how other griefing mothers are coping.
But sometimes, I wonder if I am in denial. I was reading about this article that a fellow Facebook friend/parent posted about Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder among parents with babies in the NICU. I didn't feel as fazzled or depressed as described in the article. I do remember all the dinging of the monitors at the hospital, the good news/bad news situation, and the several medical social workers that have so kindly talked to me but also confused me because there would almost be a different social worker each day.
Mommy still misses you everyday. It pains me everytime when I think of your face when you were in the hospital.
Miss you so much,
Mommy
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Your brother is a Monk(ey)!
Hello Logan,
Did you enjoy the silly Hokey-Pokey dance that Mommy and Aidan did for you on Sunday? I know it was silly, but I want your brother to show you the new things he has learned in school. We're unable to stay for long because your brother was so tired. He actually told me he wanted to go home and sleep. He never wants to do that! Maybe it's the sun, or we had such a fun-filled weekend.
Last Saturday, we met up with Uncle Kyle, Auntie Leonor and Melanie at Kelley Park in San Jose. We had a nice time at the Japanese Garden, seeing ducks and fish, having a lovely picnic, running around and even playing soccer. Melanie and Aidan got along really well for the most part (until your brother threw the soccer ball in her face!!). I think the kids are feeling more comfortable around each other, and their parents. Daddy had to work, so he was unable to hang out with us.
I took your brother out for a haircut yesterday after school. I wanted to take him last Sunday, but since he was so tired, we didn't go. I picked a new haircut place in Palo Alto that's close to school. It's a super nice and kid-friendly place called Snip-its. It was a lot nicer than Kids Cuts and Kicks in San Bruno. But then, the price tag is higher as well. It was a good experience, though I think the hair was a little too short. He looks like a little monk!! But it's ok, his hair grows out fast. I think next time your brother can go to a regular haircut place, as he's not scared anymore.
Miss you,
Mommy
Did you enjoy the silly Hokey-Pokey dance that Mommy and Aidan did for you on Sunday? I know it was silly, but I want your brother to show you the new things he has learned in school. We're unable to stay for long because your brother was so tired. He actually told me he wanted to go home and sleep. He never wants to do that! Maybe it's the sun, or we had such a fun-filled weekend.
Last Saturday, we met up with Uncle Kyle, Auntie Leonor and Melanie at Kelley Park in San Jose. We had a nice time at the Japanese Garden, seeing ducks and fish, having a lovely picnic, running around and even playing soccer. Melanie and Aidan got along really well for the most part (until your brother threw the soccer ball in her face!!). I think the kids are feeling more comfortable around each other, and their parents. Daddy had to work, so he was unable to hang out with us.
I took your brother out for a haircut yesterday after school. I wanted to take him last Sunday, but since he was so tired, we didn't go. I picked a new haircut place in Palo Alto that's close to school. It's a super nice and kid-friendly place called Snip-its. It was a lot nicer than Kids Cuts and Kicks in San Bruno. But then, the price tag is higher as well. It was a good experience, though I think the hair was a little too short. He looks like a little monk!! But it's ok, his hair grows out fast. I think next time your brother can go to a regular haircut place, as he's not scared anymore.
Miss you,
Mommy
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Don't let them take the pinwheels away!
Hello Logan,
Sorry about the quick visit today. My client's meeting ran overtime and I was in a hurry to pick up your brother from school, so I couldn't stay for long. I was able to retrieve the pinwheels from your door, and brought them to my car. I don't want the gardeners to take them away again. One of the reasons why I wanted to visit you today is to see if any other parents have taken away decorations left at other kids' places. When we come to visit you, we always see some kids have all these flowers, statues, balloons, pinwheels, and toys, and I always wonder if the parents come by every Wednesday to collect them before the mowing on Thursday. When I stopped by today at around 5:30 p.m., I still saw all the stuff around. Do the parents come later in the evening or early Thursday before the mowing begins, or do the gardeners not take away their things? I wonder! Remember last time Mommy left some pinwheels by your door and they took them away? I wonder if they do that to the other kids as well. We have never run into any parents when we visit you, so I was unable to ask. One time I thought I spotted a parent, but when I asked the man, he was just a friend visiting. The mystery!
Your brother has been doing very well with potty-training. He only had 2 daytime accidents so far, once at the San Mateo County Festival, and once at school. Now we're working on staying dry during naptime. He's going to graduate from the Jellyfish room to the Sea Otter room next month! That's the preschool class where all kids are potty-trained. Most of your brother's original classmates have graduated to that class already, including his best friend. I don't think your brother misses any of those friends (they still see each other quite a lot at the playground). But it would be nice to encourage him to use the potty more often, so that he can be in the big boy's class. Transition period will be from Sept 1-3. He will spend a few hours a day in the Sea Otter room. I don't forsee any problems, especially, he already knows the Head Teacher in that class. The Head Teacher was actually one of his teachers when Aidan first started preschool. This is going to be exciting!
Mommy might bring Aidan to come see you this weekend. Unfortunately, Daddy is on-call this week and has to be home all weekend.
Love you,
Mommy
Sorry about the quick visit today. My client's meeting ran overtime and I was in a hurry to pick up your brother from school, so I couldn't stay for long. I was able to retrieve the pinwheels from your door, and brought them to my car. I don't want the gardeners to take them away again. One of the reasons why I wanted to visit you today is to see if any other parents have taken away decorations left at other kids' places. When we come to visit you, we always see some kids have all these flowers, statues, balloons, pinwheels, and toys, and I always wonder if the parents come by every Wednesday to collect them before the mowing on Thursday. When I stopped by today at around 5:30 p.m., I still saw all the stuff around. Do the parents come later in the evening or early Thursday before the mowing begins, or do the gardeners not take away their things? I wonder! Remember last time Mommy left some pinwheels by your door and they took them away? I wonder if they do that to the other kids as well. We have never run into any parents when we visit you, so I was unable to ask. One time I thought I spotted a parent, but when I asked the man, he was just a friend visiting. The mystery!
Your brother has been doing very well with potty-training. He only had 2 daytime accidents so far, once at the San Mateo County Festival, and once at school. Now we're working on staying dry during naptime. He's going to graduate from the Jellyfish room to the Sea Otter room next month! That's the preschool class where all kids are potty-trained. Most of your brother's original classmates have graduated to that class already, including his best friend. I don't think your brother misses any of those friends (they still see each other quite a lot at the playground). But it would be nice to encourage him to use the potty more often, so that he can be in the big boy's class. Transition period will be from Sept 1-3. He will spend a few hours a day in the Sea Otter room. I don't forsee any problems, especially, he already knows the Head Teacher in that class. The Head Teacher was actually one of his teachers when Aidan first started preschool. This is going to be exciting!
Mommy might bring Aidan to come see you this weekend. Unfortunately, Daddy is on-call this week and has to be home all weekend.
Love you,
Mommy
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Babies are in the air...
Hi Logan,
Sorry Mommy hasn't been writing to you regularly. Work has been busy, esp. one of my staff is leaving next week, when I am already short-staff to begin with!
We came back from dim sum with some uncles and aunties. It was nice to see our friends again. Sometimes you get so caught up with family life that I don't make enough time for my friends. Daddy gets to see his friends at work, but Mommy has to make an effort to see them. We used to do dim sum about once a month, but it's been a while.
Remember Auntie Beverly is pregnant with twins? She's having twin girls! And then I found out that Auntie Melissa is pregnant with a baby girl as well. Talk about babies in the air! More and more of Mommy's friends are pregnant these days. I think it's because we're at that age. We passed the wedding phase, now it's the baby stage. Daddy is so jealous and really wants a baby girl. I wonder if a god-daughter will satisfy him. It was nice to see my mommy friends and talk about babies and pregnancy. I guess at one point, we ladies were so busy talking, the others were bored out of their minds. Oopsie! I guess we just need to make time to hang out more often, just the girls! Maybe a spa day with the girls....but then, we're trying to save money.
We're going to the San Mateo County Fair later today, after your brother got up from his nap. Daddy got free tickets from work. Now that it's summer, there are many fairs going on. Nice to be out in the sun.
The other day, Mommy was at Seton Medical Center to visit some clients who're volunteering, and to take one to see a doctor. When passing by the ICU and CCU, I couldn't help but think of our stay at Kaiser. I also noticed that Kaiser is a much nicer hospital. Probably because Kaiser is purely private, and Seton probably gets funding from the government. I hate going back to hospitals because of what we have gone through. But unfortunately, I can't help it, and we'll be seeing Kaiser more often when we move down south. I wonder if this feeling will ever go away.
Seeing babies and hearing news of babies make me miss you even more. Today is the 15th, that means you have left us for 4 months now. And of course, tomorrow you would have been 9 months old. We'll come see you tomorrow and maybe bring you a pinwheel. I could probably swing by your place next Wednesday to retrieve the pinwheel before mowing day. So, we'll see you tomorrow, ok?
Miss you,
Mommy
Sorry Mommy hasn't been writing to you regularly. Work has been busy, esp. one of my staff is leaving next week, when I am already short-staff to begin with!
We came back from dim sum with some uncles and aunties. It was nice to see our friends again. Sometimes you get so caught up with family life that I don't make enough time for my friends. Daddy gets to see his friends at work, but Mommy has to make an effort to see them. We used to do dim sum about once a month, but it's been a while.
Remember Auntie Beverly is pregnant with twins? She's having twin girls! And then I found out that Auntie Melissa is pregnant with a baby girl as well. Talk about babies in the air! More and more of Mommy's friends are pregnant these days. I think it's because we're at that age. We passed the wedding phase, now it's the baby stage. Daddy is so jealous and really wants a baby girl. I wonder if a god-daughter will satisfy him. It was nice to see my mommy friends and talk about babies and pregnancy. I guess at one point, we ladies were so busy talking, the others were bored out of their minds. Oopsie! I guess we just need to make time to hang out more often, just the girls! Maybe a spa day with the girls....but then, we're trying to save money.
We're going to the San Mateo County Fair later today, after your brother got up from his nap. Daddy got free tickets from work. Now that it's summer, there are many fairs going on. Nice to be out in the sun.
The other day, Mommy was at Seton Medical Center to visit some clients who're volunteering, and to take one to see a doctor. When passing by the ICU and CCU, I couldn't help but think of our stay at Kaiser. I also noticed that Kaiser is a much nicer hospital. Probably because Kaiser is purely private, and Seton probably gets funding from the government. I hate going back to hospitals because of what we have gone through. But unfortunately, I can't help it, and we'll be seeing Kaiser more often when we move down south. I wonder if this feeling will ever go away.
Seeing babies and hearing news of babies make me miss you even more. Today is the 15th, that means you have left us for 4 months now. And of course, tomorrow you would have been 9 months old. We'll come see you tomorrow and maybe bring you a pinwheel. I could probably swing by your place next Wednesday to retrieve the pinwheel before mowing day. So, we'll see you tomorrow, ok?
Miss you,
Mommy
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