Dear Logan,
Thanksgiving has come and gone. This year, I am thankful for good health, happy and loving family, great and supportive friends, a new home, jobs, and most importantly you. Even though our time spent together was short, but you have made a great impact on us all. You have made Daddy and Mommy stronger. Even your brother remembers you. He sees flowers, and he remembers we buy you flowers and even suggested me buying you flowers today and visiting you, instead of going shopping.
Last Thanksgiving, Ah Gung and Ah Po were here to spend it with us. Daddy and Mommy visited you at the hospital, and brought you a little turkey picture and taped it to your crib. We took a picture with you when you still had your nasal cannula, and IV on your head. It still hurt me when I saw that picture, esp. your IV.
This year, it's only Mommy and your brother. Daddy was in Taipei with all the other relatives for Uncle John's wedding. Luckily, Mommy and big brother got invited to a Thanksgiving dinner by Uncle Paul and Auntie Rachel. On Friday, we hung out with Uncle Kyle, Auntie Leonor and Melanie during the day, and had dinner with Auntie Shelley and her boyfriend. Mommy didn't do any Black Friday shopping. I was researching online but didn't really see anything that I absolutely wanted. Today, Saturday, was my shopping day. Mommy took your brother to Gilroy Outlet in the morning, and was able to buy him some clothes and a pair of shoes for myself. Then we went to Costco and did more shopping. Tomorrow, will be more shopping, and maybe taking your brother for a little train ride. Not quite sure yet.
I think we might also come by to visit you tomorrow. I want to bring back the poinsettias home for the holidays. Did you like those bright and cheery flowers we got you for Thanksgiving? I don't want the gardeners to take them away and I might not have time to stop by during the week before 5 p.m. to see you. So, it's best to bring that home tomorrow. I'll bring you another bouquet of lovely flowers, ok?
Take care, sweetheart. Mommy will come see you tomorrow.
Love you,
Mommy
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
A frustrating day
Dear Logan,
Aside from the fun that I had at Matthew's 5-year old birthday party, today has been a frustrating day for me. First of all, this whole curtain-shopping for the new house is driving me crazy. I've been to the Tanforan JCPenney and Cupertino JCPenney back and forth for like 10 times already. I still couldn't find the perfect curtains. Mainly because they don't sell the 95" or 108" ones at the store, and they had to be ordered online. Then I went back and forth on what I like. And you know, your dad and I have very different tastes as well. On top of that, other people kept on giving us unwanted opinions and it's making things more frustrating. I couldn't help but threw a fit today at Penney. I finally decided to order the ones I like online, and guess what, they are all backordered until next January!! It's really driving me crazy.
And the most frustrating event of the day was what I found out when I came to visit you. This week, they're not supposed to clean up your area because it's your birthday week. But when we went to see you, we noticed that your potted flowers, pinwheels, balloon and little pumpkin were all gone. Luckily, the little planes were still there. I was very upset. It didn't help that I was already very frustrated from the previous Penney trip, and that I am PMS-ing. I really had to email them and ask why. I wonder if they forgot about your birthday, or people have taken stuff away. I was told that there are people who would come into the cemetery in the middle of the night and steal things. But then, nothing taken away was precious enough for such a deed. I bet the people mowing the lawn and clearing the area just forgot it's your birthday. But, they should have taken everything away right? It's such a mystery.
Oh honey, let's hope Mommy's hormones won't keep on going crazy, and your big brother will actually listen to us. Maybe he does have too much laptop and tv time. He's been driving me crazy. Or maybe, my patience is just running low.
Next Thursday is Thanksgiving. Daddy won't be here, but I will bring your brother to come visit you.
Love you,
Mommy
When I came home with your brother from Matthew's birthday party, I was tired and pissed off again. Your brother wasn't in the best behavior in the evening. I know it was because he hasn't been sleeping well, didn't nap, and recovering from his sickness. But still, he is becoming more and more like a spoiled brat. We haven't been really disciplining him. I think it's time for some time-outs, or more serious consequences.
Aside from the fun that I had at Matthew's 5-year old birthday party, today has been a frustrating day for me. First of all, this whole curtain-shopping for the new house is driving me crazy. I've been to the Tanforan JCPenney and Cupertino JCPenney back and forth for like 10 times already. I still couldn't find the perfect curtains. Mainly because they don't sell the 95" or 108" ones at the store, and they had to be ordered online. Then I went back and forth on what I like. And you know, your dad and I have very different tastes as well. On top of that, other people kept on giving us unwanted opinions and it's making things more frustrating. I couldn't help but threw a fit today at Penney. I finally decided to order the ones I like online, and guess what, they are all backordered until next January!! It's really driving me crazy.
And the most frustrating event of the day was what I found out when I came to visit you. This week, they're not supposed to clean up your area because it's your birthday week. But when we went to see you, we noticed that your potted flowers, pinwheels, balloon and little pumpkin were all gone. Luckily, the little planes were still there. I was very upset. It didn't help that I was already very frustrated from the previous Penney trip, and that I am PMS-ing. I really had to email them and ask why. I wonder if they forgot about your birthday, or people have taken stuff away. I was told that there are people who would come into the cemetery in the middle of the night and steal things. But then, nothing taken away was precious enough for such a deed. I bet the people mowing the lawn and clearing the area just forgot it's your birthday. But, they should have taken everything away right? It's such a mystery.
Oh honey, let's hope Mommy's hormones won't keep on going crazy, and your big brother will actually listen to us. Maybe he does have too much laptop and tv time. He's been driving me crazy. Or maybe, my patience is just running low.
Next Thursday is Thanksgiving. Daddy won't be here, but I will bring your brother to come visit you.
Love you,
Mommy
When I came home with your brother from Matthew's birthday party, I was tired and pissed off again. Your brother wasn't in the best behavior in the evening. I know it was because he hasn't been sleeping well, didn't nap, and recovering from his sickness. But still, he is becoming more and more like a spoiled brat. We haven't been really disciplining him. I think it's time for some time-outs, or more serious consequences.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Happy One Year Old, My Little Red Lobster!
Dear Logan,
You would have turned one year old today. I can't imagine it's been a year already. I still remember clearly the day you're born, without refreshing my memory by reading my blog. I am not sure if I would be able to remember everything next year.
Sorry I was unable to visit you today. I thought about taking the day off from work. But then, what am I going to do all day? I think I am more productive at work, instead of dwelling in sorrow. It's best if we could celebrate your birthday as a family, and not just me visiting you. That's why we chose to see you yesterday instead. I hope you're not angry with me. I've never forgotten you, not even a day.
I do hope you enjoy your presents and birthday cupcakes that we brought you. Mommy's not a talented baker (or a baker or cook), so I didn't really bake the pumpkin spice cupcakes from scratch. I used the Trader Joe's cake mix, and got some store bought frosting. Daddy and I baked them on Saturday night after your big brother went to bed. I was happy to say that the cupcakes turned out pretty good.
We also bought you a Mickey Mouse "Happy Birthday" balloon. Your big brother picked that one out for you. Did you see the two little airplanes? Dear Auntie Judy from Texas sent them to me a couple days ago. She said they are presents from your little friends, Kevin and Alan. She wished the planes would soar with your spirit at your new home. Receiving such thoughtful gifts brought tears to my eyes. When we visited you, the pumpkins and Halloween decorations were still there. Actually, for the month of November, they would not be clearing presents and flowers because of the different holidays. First week of Nov is All Souls Day; Second Week is Veteran's Day; Third week is your birthday; and Fourth week is Thanksgiving. I am happy that the decorations could stay longer and won't be cleared every week. That's why I chose to get you potted flowers, instead of just a bouquet. The potted flowers would surely last longer, and they were such beautiful Fall colors.
Logan, you're loved by many. Though your life on earth was short and painful, it was definitely filled with love.
Love and Miss You,
Mommy
You would have turned one year old today. I can't imagine it's been a year already. I still remember clearly the day you're born, without refreshing my memory by reading my blog. I am not sure if I would be able to remember everything next year.
We also bought you a Mickey Mouse "Happy Birthday" balloon. Your big brother picked that one out for you. Did you see the two little airplanes? Dear Auntie Judy from Texas sent them to me a couple days ago. She said they are presents from your little friends, Kevin and Alan. She wished the planes would soar with your spirit at your new home. Receiving such thoughtful gifts brought tears to my eyes. When we visited you, the pumpkins and Halloween decorations were still there. Actually, for the month of November, they would not be clearing presents and flowers because of the different holidays. First week of Nov is All Souls Day; Second Week is Veteran's Day; Third week is your birthday; and Fourth week is Thanksgiving. I am happy that the decorations could stay longer and won't be cleared every week. That's why I chose to get you potted flowers, instead of just a bouquet. The potted flowers would surely last longer, and they were such beautiful Fall colors.
I know it was weird that I kept on taking pictures at your home. According to Chinese traditions, it's a big No-No. But how can we not take a family picture on your birthday? Besides, this is how I can document everything, with words and pictures. Mommy also received a nice email from Auntie Ta Ta in Hong Kong. Even though she has never met you, she has read all about you. She knew it's your birthday today and wanted Mommy to give you big hugs and kisses. She wanted you to know that she loves you. Actually, many of Mommy's friends all miss you. They all felt like they've known you all your life.
Logan, you're loved by many. Though your life on earth was short and painful, it was definitely filled with love.
Love and Miss You,
Mommy
Saturday, November 7, 2009
We moved and I miss you.
Dear Logan,
We finally moved into our new home. It's been a long day, and there will be longer days to come with the unpacking and organizing.
I just finished watching my recorded Grey's Anatomy. This episode is all about patients in Pediatrics. Whenever it's about kids in a medical show, I always cry. This time it's no difference. Mommy misses you so much.
You should be sharing a room with your brother. We bought this place because of you. But you're not here to share the joy with us. You won't be crawling on the floor like Makoto today.
I miss you.
Love,
Mommy
We finally moved into our new home. It's been a long day, and there will be longer days to come with the unpacking and organizing.
I just finished watching my recorded Grey's Anatomy. This episode is all about patients in Pediatrics. Whenever it's about kids in a medical show, I always cry. This time it's no difference. Mommy misses you so much.
You should be sharing a room with your brother. We bought this place because of you. But you're not here to share the joy with us. You won't be crawling on the floor like Makoto today.
I miss you.
Love,
Mommy
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