Funeral Service

Dear Baby,

Mommy was scared this morning when visiting you at the funeral home for the final viewing. I was worried that the calm, peaceful image that I had of you last, would be destroyed and be replaced with a horrible image. I am so sorry, dear. But Mommy couldn't resist saying goodbye to you and looking at you one last time. You looked beautiful. I've never seen you looked so good. The funeral home had done an amazing job in making you look comfortable and peaceful, like you're a very healthy baby sleeping in your crib. Daddy and Mommy miss you so much. We knew you're in a better place, but we couldn't help but cry and want you to come home.

Did you see all the people who came today to say goodbye to you, especially Grandpa? We had over 50 friends and family to come celebrate your new life. You were so loved by everyone. They shed tears of sadness from missing you, but also tears of joy knowing you're in a better place. Mommy printed pictures of you and made two posters. One had pictures of only you while you're at home with us, those good two months when you're healthy and make us so happy. The other poster had pictures of you with Daddy, Mommy, Big Brother, Ah Gung, Ah Po, and Grandma. We all loved you so much and we loved taking pictures with you.

After mass, many people came to the restaurant to continue the celebration of your new life. Mommy was so happy to see everyone. It has been a long time since Mommy saw her friends. It was nice to catch up with them. They have all been so supportive of what we have gone through. It was nice to personally thank them for their love, support and prayers. Logan, we're very lucky. We're very blessed to have great people around us. Now that you are up in Heaven, you need to watch over all of us, ok?

When Mommy told Daddy that I was going to continue blogging, in the form of writing letters to you, Daddy was concerned. He's worried that Mommy won't be able to move on. But don't you worry, Mommy would be fine. Mommy wants you to know how much I miss you, but also wants to tell you what's going on in our lives. Writing letters to you might make me sad sometimes, but I think it's also therapeutic in a way. Don't you worry, baby. Mommy will continue on with her life, but Mommy will never forget you.

Watch over us, dear. On Wednesday, we will lay you to rest. You will have a new home, and we will visit you often.


Miss you dearly,
Mommy