Letters to Baby Logan: Mother's Day spent with my Dearest

My Dear Baby,

It's Mother's Day. It should be a day that I celebrate with you and your big brother. It's a day that you two monkeys give me big hugs and kisses, and tell me "I love you, Mommy". Even though you're not here, I know you whisper those words to me in Heaven. Mother's Day has been commercialized. People say everyday should be Mother's Day and we don't need a day to tell us to be good to our mothers. In a way, I agree. But I still want a special day! I don't care about commercialism, I want to celebrate Mother's Day!!!

I've read many sad blogs about today, because so many mothers are still grieving. Some still couldn't move on, and decided not to celebrate Mother's Day. Others like me, continue to celebrate. I don't know how I feel if I don't have your big brother. I might just be so sad to do anything, because you're not here with me. Fortunately, your big brother has been my strength. He makes Mommy and Daddy happy. Mommy will continue to miss and love you, but Mommy will also continue to be a good mommy to your brother. I want to celebrate Mother's Day, because it's a special day for him as well. He might not understand the meaning of today, but I know he will have good memories.

Mommy's day started with a pretty waffle breakfast made by Daddy. We then headed to the San Francisco Zoo. We did not hit every single area, as it became late and your brother was getting really tired. The best part for him was to see animals that he has been reading from books, especially, his Diego book, EVERY NIGHT. He got to see the real chinchilla, armadillo, tapir, anteater, bears, monkeys, owls, and lions. We saw other animals, too, but the ones I mentioned were his favorites, esp. Chinchilla and Anteater. We read about them every night, and he wanted Mommy to draw an anteater every night. I was surprised to actually see them at the zoo.

The most memorable moment? Running in horror as a swarm of bees slowly descending upon us and everyone else who were admiring the prairie dogs. It was scary! Mommy was literally carrying your brother and running out of the area, as the bees were hitting us at eye level. Thank goodness we're ok. We also got on the steam train. Your big brother likes trains. Daddy didn't like waiting in line, but Mommy forced him to. Luckily, we waited for less than 30 mins, if not Daddy would get grouchy and your brother would get super impatient.

It was a fun and tiring day. Your brother got home and immediately fell asleep after putting him to bed. Mommy got super sunburned with red arms and raccoon eyes. Did you see all of the action in heaven? How I wish you were there with us. There were so many families there, since it's free zoo day. Every time I saw a baby passed by, I thought of you.

Mommy and big brother will be going back to Macau tomorrow night. You need to watch over us and also keep Daddy company, ok?

Time for Mommy to sleep. I have included some pictures of your brother's favorite animals. Too bad I couldn't get a good picture of the chinchilla (he was running around too fast), or the armadillo (too dark). Enjoy!